juan keller.
ana rien.
ultraschall.
nf live: drums by paul etsch.

nihilism forever is an electronic but almost acoustic band. it is formed by no-musicians. "objects" is its first low-fi with no mastering and no sleeve art cathartic EP. all its songs are things, sex related, disposable, useless things. "objects" was recorded in a few sessions while i was inmersed in the neverending mixing of plasma. we have played in public a few times. we have just finished our second studio recording "the beauty of believing in nothing" and we are working in two different films soundtracks. juan keller



EP: OBJECTS. © 2000 Sonda Records.
juan keller: voice, programming.
ana rien: cello.
ultraschall: piano.
"creation is the most absurd pleasure" nietzsche.
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whip
this is how we face you / this is what we are / this is what we use to kill the cold lights / this is all we have / and all you really want / this is wath we use to tie / to rape to beat to dry to possess you / and their hands were like flowers / crowning the broken arms / their hands were like flowers -you said / i said: i'm glad / this is the first object / this is what we become / this is what you understand / for pleasure and pain / this is the end of hope / this is the conscious crash / this is torture, this is absence, / this is reality / and their hands were like flowers / crowning the broken arms / their hands were like flowers -you said / i said: i'm glad / this is what we are.

blade
wake up / stop believing / there is no more than this / in god the liar lies / and reason is unknown / right now / hot liquid dropping / salvation is in the flesh / your tears are hanging / your faith is dirt / there's nobody to pray to / we are all naked and alone / if there's a heaven up above / then why nobody wants to die? / i hate / religions of hate / the fascist golden church / their souls of insects / their culture of death / what else / you don't want to hear? / if it hurts it must be true / people are stupid / civilization is lost / there's nobody to pray to / we are all naked and alone / if there's a heaven up above / then why nobody wants to die? / wake up / cure yourself / you're not guilty at all / feel no repression / cutting the edge / i am / all inside you / there's nobody who can judge you / i won't look for answers / out of my head.

hole
in this hell of noise and silence / i just see your eyes watching / meet the challenge, feel the fear / in the purest part of you / come get closer / bleed with me / join the group of meaningless / useless harvest / futile work / bringing peace to you and me / all my senser go away / desperation will remain / welcome machines i need you / to kill myself slowly / sometimes i have that feeling / that makes me think this way / in the dream or a nasty future / i am climbing the high walls / in the world or everyday / i have my body to destroy.

shield
i choose lucidity / the best way to control you / i choose the end of us / to finally find me / i choose disbelief and evolution / i choose the truth / all the truth / the naked truth / i built this world of hate and happiness / and i destroyed the exit too / i built this place with hate and happiness / and nothing sacred to protect / i choose not eat (i choose not to go) / same shit everyday (where everybody goes) / i choose dignity / i choose pride / i choose me / instead of them / i choose fuck (i choose live my life) / instead of pray / i built this place of hate and happiness / and i destroyed the exit too / i built this place with hate and happiness / and nothing sacred to protect.

chain
the farther you are / the better i am / the sweeter you seem / the deeper i hate / there's nothing to hide / and nothing to share / the chain is heavier than yesterday / the link between us / is made of steel / i'm tied to you / but i couldn't choose / i wished to be loved / now i want to be free / and nothing is everywhere / in the core of the emptyness / i have just found myself / i am whole / i am pure / i am blessed in atheism / the sky will fall / beneath your feet / and then your eyes / will start to see / all could be different / but shame won't turn love / the it could be / the way it never was / there's just one caress / that hurts all the time / but always could be worse / in the core of the emptyness / i have just found myself / i am whole / i am pure / i am blessed in atheism / the sky will fall / beneath your feet / and then your eyes / will start to see.

knife
in this prison of toys and machines / i'm waiting that the world colapses / i know you will enjoy it / i know you also want it / waiting for the world to colapse / i'm sitting here in the darkness / i'm hiding, wishing, waiting / all the words become lies / everything perfectly clear / waiting for the world to colapse / i will not share this perfect place / it's all i have to see the end / i'll burn my eyes to celebrate / i'll push the knife deeper / all alone i talk to myself / 'cos you have disappeared / i have the complete vission / (there's nobody who can hear me) of the bitten years to come / waiting for the world to colapse / i will have faith in nihilism / i'll kill your past and set you free / i'll keep you safe from the pain / i must survive to see the end / nihilism / set you free / from the pain / in the end.



ALBUM: THE BEAUTY OF BELIEVING IN NOTHING. © 2007 Sonda Records.
juan keller: voice, rebirth.
ana rien: cello.
ultraschall: piano, rhodes.
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life on earth
osho won't forgive my violent thoughts / he says that we can be better amoebas / (ch: i can't stop my mind / don't take it away / i need it to feel i'm alive / i can't stop myself / don't cut me again / i'm ready to live on earth) / jesus won't accept my sexual behavior / my hedonism would be too beauty for him / (ch) / (br: i don't wanna die to be alive) * 4 / priests of every creed deny my beliefs / they claim that all their contradictions are true / so many years of latter days has passed / and nothing i know has changed at all / (ch) / (br) * 2.

tracks
tracks / will somebody listen to my words? / please! / is there a place where we belong to? / (br tracks, tapes, sounds) / tracks / temples as drug machines cover the sun / men of god are wolves for theÖ / (ch: free will be inside our head) / free to be another kind of space / (br fast) / tracks / confusing my existence with null pride / shame! / will i be somebody you can trust? / (br) / tracks / bricks of void are solid on my feet / now begins the hunting of theÖ/ (ch) / (br fast).

enemy
come along bring your fever to me / let me know your hidden thoughts again / give yourself the finest prize / become my enemy * 2 / dream with me, forget to listen awhile / all the colors fade away / at the shell of the silent hours / become my enemy * 2 / i need what you donít want to give me / (br: in the worst slice of time / all your instincts, your wishes, your fears, / all you need to keep for yourself) / falling to the real earth with joy / youíll deny my felony / donít pretend to be like me / become my enemy *2 become my enemy / (br) / come along bring your fever to me / let me know your hidden thoughts again / give yourself the finest prize / become my enemy * 4.

voided
a way to keep me safe and clean awhile / another chance to think about your void / (ch: donít forget yourself / you are so weak / you are so frail) / iím gonna save you / from the sun / save you from the stars / save you from the sky / a way to teach you well and set you clean / another chance to control you everywhere / (ch) / iím gonna save you / from your friends / save you from the pain / save you from the love / another way to feel i am a saint / another time to go, another time to beÖ / (ch) / iím gonna save you from your soul / save you from your will / save you from yourself / (br: the time we expend / the slaves unpaired / the pain from others / the creatures we are / all i want for me i want for you).

burden
i am my name / only my name / at the knot of all i care / i am a question / waiting to shout / and i feel proud of the damage done / (ch: donít want to go / donít want to stay / donít want to know / what you have to say / donít want to go / donít want to stay / donít want to throw / what you like to slay) / i am a sight / only a sight / wishing nothing at the last recall / i draw the lanes / of the roads i walk / to run away from the industrial faith / (ch) / (br: i donít want to be so perfect / i donít want to be so strong / sometimes all you can do is / go away to be alone) / i am my name / only my name / at the knot of all i care / i am a question / waiting to shout / and i feel proud of the damage done / (ch) / (br).

the beauty of believing in nothing
cutting that conversation / slicing my life in two / seeking the final truth / look what you did to me / to me * 4 / painting the wings from angels / cover my eyes with lights / you guided my step with lies / look what you did to me / to me * 4 / (br: there was a time / when i was pure / my innocence was i all had / and then you came / and made me loose / the beauty of believing in nothing) / saving my soul from demons / you killed me so many times / you gave me your deepest fears / look what you did to me / to me * 4.
auk revisited (lydon, jones, cook, matlock)
i am an anti-christ / i am an anarchist / don't know what i want, i know how to get it / i wanna destroy the believer / (ch: i wanna be anarchy) / anarchy for the UK / and their partners of the terror war / they kill every conscious, kill every strange / domination is a shopping scheme / (ch) / (br: it could be the memetics of god / it could be propaganda plus drugs / it could be the processed food / should I buy a vatican cross?) / i am an anti-christ / i am an anarchist / don't know what i want. i know how to get it / i wanna destroy everything.

climb!
uh, uh uh * 4 / (ch: climb! Ė high Ė reach Ė reach the sky) / all my compassion goes to dead rich blondes / and every thought i have i send to their graves / they represent the world we know and love / stupidity is immorality / (ch) / uh, uh uh * 4 / publicity is human white noise / communication has become the void / i like poor people (white, clean and quiet) / the lie of charity is one expensive dress / (ch) / (ch).


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